Feline Infectious Peritonitis : Part I

Dearest Abu,
my lovely lovely lovely Abu baby.

It's been almost 2 months now. Now that you're confirmed of F.I.P (Feline Infectious Peritonitis). Seriously, Akak(me) almost thought that the doctor had diagnosed you wrong. You were so strong and acted like you weren't even sick.

Akak still remember, Abu, when I came home after the finals and was told that you had been inactive and suspected for high fever. Akak ingat itu main-main aje. Manalah tahu, you missed me that bad.

After finding some free time, Akak and others managed to make Ibu to take you to the vets, Abu. During that time, Akak glad sangat. Knowing that you're going to be fine because Doctor Sab said that there's absolutely nothing wrong withcu.

But, Abu. We came back again after a week. This time, doctor said you're sick. Maybe because of the fleas. She took some of your blood for tests and eventually had to shave some of your cute grey fur :(

Honestly Abu, akak was worried so bad. And at the same time, hoping that it wouldn't be a bad thing.

After a week, your result came out, Abu. She said you were just fine. Nothing's wrong. You're just absolutely healthy. Akak was so damn happy and we all live happily ever after, Abu. The end.
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I hope that it always turned that way.
When the test results came out, Doctor Sab said you were fine. Nothing's wrong with the tests done. Only that, she didn't managed to run another one test for you. The FIP Test.
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When akak, ibu, and iya thought that you were just going to be fine, things started to go unconvincing again. You were breathing so hard, it's like you were suffering from it.
Ibu took the day off and brought you and Akak to Animal Medical Centre Setapak.

And I know that my life's going to end, the moment the vet looked at you and immediately said that there's absolutely something wrong witchu.
"A cat can never breathe like this,"

He admitted you for a night after running some tests for you.

YA ALLAH, the only test that you missed out on was the only thing that's going to take you away from us, Abu.....

Abu.......
Akak sedih sangat. My heart break into pieces, knowing that you're going away. This much early. It's so unacceptable that I cried every single time I think about it.
Yeah, Allah took you because He loves you more than we do.
But Abu...... *sobs*
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You've been strong enough. For these whole 2 months. No one thought that you could hold on this long, Abu.
Even now that you didn't eat.
You didn't drink.
You didn't walk much.
You stopped playing, running and even 'meow'-ing
You cannot lie down properly
You don't have much strength left.
and you actually suffering bit by bit.

Akak just want you to know baby, I will always love you.
Akak won't know when will you go, when will you breath your last breath. But I do hope that I'm ready for that.
YA ALLAH, kuatkan kami semua untuk melepaskan Abu dan janganlah bagi dia terseksa lagi :'(

No matter how sick you'll be Abu, INSYA-ALLAH, Akak will be beside you, loving you with all my heart.